To everyone: Thanks for the kind words and sincere advice. I apologize for not responding promptly to every post but truly each post had something good to digest and I'm much in debt to everyone who responded.
Every post on this thread reflected human kindness and interest in the welfare of a stranger (me), something that is found not just among JWs or Christians or the religious but in truth among people of all walks of life. No matter what we believe or do not believe most people seek peace and extend a hand to help their neighbor whoever he may be.
There are no "apostates" here. On the contrary, there are men and women who love their neighbor and seek to help JWs "see" their religion in the light of day outside the dark closet within which they worship. Please do not find offense when I say there are more followers of the spirit of Christ's teachings here than is found in the highest halls of the Watchtower. Truly.
Peace to all.